another attempt

Alright, so I'm hiding out at my sisters apartment for a few hours, for reasons I will get at in a min. So I thought since she has a computer here I'd try to make another update. Always stuff happening and I just don't get around to making enough posts to keep all you readers up to date with my life lol. But this is possibly the shitiest laptop I've ever been on, so I really hope this post actually goes through. Plus its really annoying, this is the first time since I've been here (I've been here for several hours now) that I've been able to get onto this website, and just now my sister (who was working before) comes home with my little brother, so now its extremely noisy and rather annoying around here. I have a feeling I will lose my train of thought many times. Anyways as to why I'm hiding out here for what I was hoping would only be a few hours (though now that my sister is home with little brother they prolly wont be going back to the house tonight so I might get stuck spending the night here), was because today was supposed to be my day off, along with tomorrow ( a very rare thing to have not only two days off in a week but also two days off in a row) but I noticed the other morning that Dana (who is not in good moods with me right now which I might get to as to why in a bit) had changed things around a bit, and made it so I only have tomorrow off this week and that I was supposed to close the place tonight. I'm feeling rather tired, though I'm sure i could make it through a night of work if I tried. I just didn't want to. So I pretended like I didn't notice the schedule change, and so I didn't want to be around the house around the time that I was supposed to work, because I knew they would call, and I wouldn't be able to ask anyone (especially step mother who always manages to answer the phone) to say 'she's not here right now' when they did call. So I didn't want to be there, because I knew if they got me on the phone and said 'you're supposed to be working' I wouldn't be able to give any valid reasons as to why I wouldn't come in tonight even though to my knowledge (or pretended such) i wasn't supposed to work tonight. I'm so sneaky, arn't I?? LoL

Anyways, I can't remember how far in my last post I went on about school, and really I could go on about it for a long long time, so let me try to put it down to whats actually up, right now. I finished that dinky stuff at the college up here, but I hated it all and I don't feel like it will help me much at all, unless I was to stay up here for the rest of my life. It wasn't the certificate that I wanted at all, and I'm so not happy with it, so i really should go back to college to get what i really wanted in the first place. But I don't know how any of it will happen, because as of right now I have no actual plans to move anywhere else, just to stay here and continue saving up money, and I wouldn't be able to go back to school here, because obviously they're a bunch of asstards and don't offer me what I actually want. So maybe once I have plans to move somewhere else, I can look into going back to school there.

Then there was my birthday. I'm now 20 years old, isn't that crazy? I feel so mature now lol. I was supposed to work on the actual day of my birthday. I saw supposed. I had the two n ights before my birthday though off work, and so Meaghan, her boyfriend and myself....*stops for a big arguement between Kenneth and Megs...gawd I want to go home already* Anyways the 3 of us, was supposed to be 4 of us but the Glenn guy (who they were trying to hook me up with) never ended up coming (in which I was disappointed at the time, but now am very glad) went out to Grande Prairie and rented a hotel for a night. We bar hopped for a bit until we found one that was fairly popular and we got very much drunk. At the time, Cory (Megs bf) and megs weren't actually 'together' so it was rather fun joking and chatting with him about how much he wanted to be with Meaghan. Anyways, despite how drunk we all got, I was again (this is a typical thing) the only person who wasn't hung over. We drove back to Fort St. John the next day(my birthday), and I passed out for an hour or two before I was supposed to work since none of us got much sleep in Grande Prairie. Then I went in for work, and Zack warned me as I walked in that something possibly bad was about to happen.

So yeah I come out of the change room and the girls are all huddled together, and when I come in front of them, they all start clapping and in front of a pub full of maybe 30 or 40 people started singing happy birthday to me. Then Lenny comes around the corner with a giant glass vase full of 6 dozen roses all of different colors. And there in front of all the guests and all of our coworkers asked me out on a date. I will go into this part later on. So before I even get one table, Ron tells me that they don't actually need me to work for the night, and I said i didn't mind working since megs had gone into work and I'd really have nowhere to go except for back home and do nothing. So he suggests I sit down and they buy me something to eat. So I got changed again and sat down, and they brought me out a martini. As I was drinking that, the two Friday delivery guys Derryl and Jim sat with me (as they come up every Friday and have to spend the night at the hotel across the road, so they drink the night away) and each started buying me drinks. I think between the two of them they bought me 20 shots. As the night progressed I got extremely drunk (especially since I had never really recovered from drinking out in Grande Prairiethe night before lol) and each girl that was working that night each bought me a martini. I never did get that 'something to eat' that ron promised, but I was soooo sooo sooo drunk I had to call megs to come pick me up once she got off work, and she came and sat with us. I say us not only including the two delivery boys because as each person that was working there that night got off work they came and sat with us. So by the time we closed the bar, everyone was sitting together at one giant table. Everyone that worked that night, plus my sister, and two deliver guys. And drunk. I was so drunk I was just wandering around the place hugging everyone and going 'Happy Birthday!!!' I was so smiling and happy, I really showed a side of me to everyone at work that they've never seen before. They said they loved it and how I was. And its been extremely noticable since that night that I am now way more open and way more happy and chatty. I'm just comfortable around the place now. It's great.

So yeah, Lenny. He has apparently liked me since I started working there. Everyone tells me that he must have liked me just because I was nice to him. Apparently girls arn't nice to him very often. Or talk to him, or any of that stuff. Lenny, he is (I'm not sure if I mentioned anything about him in previous posts so i will say so now) not unnattractive...well he's not butt ugly, but hes not attractive lol. He's tall and muscular, but has a dirty look to him, and his front teeth are rotten, and he has the mind of a 10 year old. Very immature and no attention span at all. But I've n ever done anything or said anything to him that would make any normal person fall in love with me, though it did him. He apparently, without me even knowing he liked me had everyone convinced that i liked him as well and that we were practically dating. Then he does this stunt on my birthday and puts me on the spot in front of so many people and asks me on a date. It was only because I didn't want to hurt his feelings in front of so many people that I said yes. But let me tell you, the date we went on the next night was the most horrible date I've ever gone on. It was just so bad. We went out after our bar closed and we were both off work. But by that hour, the only place open is Boston Pizza (and at that hour the only people besides us that went there are the drunks that had to leave the bars). I'm dead tired, from two nights of getting shitfaced and not getting hardly any sleep and then a 10 hour shift of work. All i could think about is how badly I wanted to sleep, and I mentioned this several times. Someone in their right mind would have said 'lets do this some other time you look like you need some rest' but he was just so anxious to go on a date that he wouldn't let me slip I guess. And the whole 'date' all he did was talk about himself and how great he is and how he can get anything he wants because he's just that good. And every word he said, came out to me 'I'm full of shit'. And no matter how horribly placed I looked the whole time, he made no move to end the date, and so finally I had to ask the waitress to call me a cab when she came to refill our drinks. Oh I think I forgot to mention, that at this point, in 6 days from my birthday he was supposed to move back to Grande Prairie. So after that horrible 'date' I figured it wouldn't matter because he was going to leave in a few days and I wouldn't have to worry about him anymore. But every day after that night until the day he left, he nagged and followed me around work and just plain ol annoyed the hell out of me trying to get me to go on another date with him. Every time I saw him he would say something like 'well what are you doing tonight? tomorrow?' 'what about the day after?' 'the night i'm leaving i might come in to see you' 'well if this week isn't good for you I can come back up and stay with you on weekends' I was so fucking annoyed I can't even describe it anymore than that. Finally the day he was supposed to leave, he was also supposed to come in and drink with everyone and say his 'goodbye's but he started bugging me again and i'd had about as much of him as I could handle, so I took h im to the side and straight out told him t hat I didn't like him. He had this crazily dumbfounded look on his face and was just kinda like 'oh' and shortly after he left instead of staying to drink like he was planning before. i felt bad for hurting him, but I guess I really had to do it.

Well I'm going to try and send this now just in case it doesn't send, I will be so pissed if I had any more than this in and it didn't send. actually looking at all i've typed right now i think I'll be pissed if this doesn't send, but I'm going to try. Then I will have more time soon to type more later, especially if I end up staying here the night *groan*